A little over a week before the Thanksgiving holiday, I under went a phase in my life I'll never want to go thru &/or endure again. This was my 1st bout w/ addiction, & the demon was giving me a thorough ass kickin.
Im refering to Morphine addiction, & once I started running out, I would never feel so miserable as when I started to go thru withdrawels or WD's. Initially, I 1st started feeling extremly run down. Then came the vomiting, followed w/ severe diarrea. Then incontinice. I was transported via ambulance to the ER where they immediantly started rehydrating me because of the diarrea. I spent two long days of misery there, regardless of my efforts, I was unable to make myself comftorable due to the hospital bed, even though it would raise or lower the back & legs, at 6'3", there just wasnt any way.
My addiction was because I became dependent on the pain releiving effects as, because of a drunk driver almost 25yrs ago, I am in pretty much almost relentless pain &/or discomfort. The Arthritis that developed in my lower extremities about 12yrs ago has progressed to the point its crippeling. Im unable to tie my own shoes because of a lack in range of motion. Im uninsured, & unsble to start recieving Medicaid until Aug of 2012. Fortunatly, I did start collecting SSI benifits, but one cannot live on that.
Because of an inebreated Alcohol Counseler I am no longer able to work for a little over two yrs now. A Material Handler, I was an efficint hard workin son of a gun that took pride in my work, now, Im reduced to being dependent on pain medication just to function. I am slow ambulating, & can only do so w/ the assist of a cain or crutch.
Sadly, my fiance has lost two very close neigbors due to the effects of alcohol &/or drug usage. She has been on Morphine for 11 yrs now, & probably will be for the rest of her life.
On 1 Dec !!, my fiance had a little black box that she keeps her meds in stolen from her home. She is now going thru Morphine WD's, to add insult to injury, she is unable to get new scripts for her medication as she just had scripts filled out the 27th of last month. Im hardly able to care for her because of my Arthritis, & she is truly going thru hell, unsable to controll her crying. We confronted the individual we know took it & had the police involved, which, because of all the "Abusers" out there, they wont even issue out statments confirming to the pharmacy what happenned. Im currently at mw wits end as I for the 1st time, am at my wits end.
This past year has been mostly Trauma & catastrophy. Im praying 2012 will be much better.