I hate myself for giving up on playing piano years and years ago. I know it felt right back then but I wish I had been stronger and not let that damn man take away my love for playing.
Since some years I've had that funny feeling in me when hearing piano pieces...and a yearning to play again. Now I really can't stand it anymore...I MUST find a way, maybe I get myself a keyboard with heavy keys..it's cheaper...

At the moment I feel so desperate for it that I'm going to ask friends and people I know if they have any kind of keyboard that they would give me for the next weeks. I just want to make music again, play those keys...and find that wonderful and pleasing and consoling feeling again.

And the first thing I'm going to learn is Aerith's Theme for the wonderful man I'm so happy to have by my side.

Wuah, I need a drink. Too much emotion floaaaating around in that little girl's heart.